Tuesday, 8 April 2014

Tiresome Tuesday

So I've not blogged for a long time on here, for that one apologises but life has been pretty hectic & some for me. My eldest is now almost 13 & has various medical diagnoses but the most obvious is his Aspergers/High-Functioning Autism, my middle child is soon to be 11 & she is very hormonal, the youngest daughter recently turned 7.

In January 2013 I started medication for my epilepsy (this was the second lot of medication I've been put on as the previous if been put on in September 2012 I had a severe reaction to) I'm currently on Keppra which has just been increased again - it has some nasty side effects so for the next 2 weeks it'll be rough & then when it gets increased again in 2 weeks it shall also be tough for a while until my body gets used to these adjustments...

Today has been a tough day so far, first the middle child decided to be argumentative with me... She wouldn't come shopping & argued with every single thing I said - fortunately while out shopping she reflected on her actions, apologised (by note), had attempted to vacuum the lounge & made me a coffee, she is now behaving much nicer thankfully.

My son on the other hand started misbehaving as soon as we left for shopping, all because I said no to playing Minecraft... This is his current obsession & is out of control, we bought 'The Hobbit - the desolation of smaug' on BlueRay as it came with an exclusive Lego kit so he could have it, we also bought a lemon cheesecake that he requested too, but the behaviours got worse.

When home, he went & hid straight upstairs while the shopping was put away, the rest of us pitched together to do this & then had a Creme Egg Biscuit that I had already taken away a few weeks ago for his bad behaviour, he had to be persuaded to come down for that but soon went back into my room.

He then refused to come out of my room, so when told to come out & that he couldn't play Minecraft he had a complete anger outburst, throwing things downstairs, slamming doors, kicking walls, knocking over the rocking horse... He than opened his window & sat on the ledge (this was a regular occurrence last year), he was told of he didn't change his attitude then I would delete the game.

The behaviour continued more things were thrown the outburst didn't stop, so as I don't believe in empty threats the game went... Along with all saved data of worlds created. He is gradually calming down but I of course am the wicked mother for doing this, but I actually can't cope with this controlling behaviour of his anymore.

There are 5 of us in this house, 2 adults & 3 children... We all need to live together, communicate better, understand each other better, but because of the ages of the eldest 2 children being nearly 11 & 13, plus our sons issues times are trying on a daily basis.

High-Functioning Autism/Aspergers  is very challenging, like me with my Epilepsy on the outside we look normal but our brains are wired differently (mine just short-circuits, causing seizures or absences). I love my children dearly & do everything in my power to bring them up correctly, but being a parent is the hardest job in the world... There are no manuals, no 2 children are alike, no 2 children think the same, it is a massive learning curve.

I have decided now to take a silence vow for the rest of the day, that way I can do nothing more wrong to upset anyone. Doesn't matter if it upsets me, I am a robot now, cold & without feelings.

I shall hopefully come back soon with a nice cheerful blog for you to read, until then I apologise for any negativity but I'm just saying it as it is this isn't a complaint, it is just pointing out how hard it is living with a pre-teen boy with an autistic spectrum disorder & a middle daughter that's due to go to secondary school this September.

Life is a rollercoaster & you just have to ride it... Good job I'm a thrill seeker, hey?!

Friday, 7 February 2014

Blogger App is driving me away

I actually think I may move my BlogSpot blogs over to WordPress... Although their app had a few minor glitches (all sorted now, thanks) this Blogger app is just the pits!

Takes forever to sign in, problems saving drafts, then the keyboard glitches so it is actually driving me to insanity trying to do anything on here... Maybe this is the reason I took so long to install on the phone as it drove me crazy before?!

What is a blogger to do that wants to update all her blogs to a good degree & play fair with them all???  I just don't know... Frustrated & some is all I can say :-/

Blogging Frustration

So as you can see I've not actually blogged on here since September... Why?!  Lack of PC, a laptop that needed reformatting,  changing mobiles not one but twice,  mobile app being a complete pita (pain in the ass) & then only just installing the app on my current phone as I got so fed-up of everything getting in my way I had a break from Blogger!

If you are going through old blogs here you may well notice missing photos, no editing,  mismatched fonts, lack of colour & such like... I shall try to get my laptop on this arvo to edit & change all this - no promises though as it has already been one of those days!!!

I am all about being positive this year though & have put in place some fantastic tools to assist in this,  it's not to say I don't have off days - it's to detract from the negatives though whilst looking at the good in life.

So far in 2014 the weather here has been awful,  only a couple of frosty mornings,  a couple of dry days & an awful lot of rain, rain, rain... This can drag you down if you think of it to much but there is so much to be happy about to!

Family, friends, love, laughter, beauty, achievements all come for free & are part of everyday life,  let's try to embrace these things more... My eldest may have difficulties but he is a truly amazing boy with many talents,  he not only achieved a 7c in his Maths test but he also achieved a 7b in Science too -  Very Proud Mommy here, Well Done Son xXx

We've had 2 new additions to the household in the form of tiny kittens Molly & Jack, hours of fun, cute, cuddly, Peterbald Crosses.

It'll be half-term soon & shortly after that the little one will turn 7yrs old,  best start planning what to do for her birthday,  just hope the weather picks up!

Final year of primary school for the middle one (who turns 11 in the summer) & the eldest will be a teenage boy come July too - where did my babies go?!

Last year was a rollercoaster for us,  we lost 3 dear people in our lives,  had to say goodbye to a beloved old cat, saw some great friends get married, celebrated a milestone family birthday, met some wonderful new friends & lots of other high/low points throughout... So that's why I decided to change my outlook this year,  too many of us get stuck in daily rut routines as it is all too easy but in taking steps to prevent me getting caught in that trap.

Lots of exciting opportunities this year with making people smile,  having fun,  enjoying life to the full... What is stopping me??? Absolutely nothing!!!

Monday, 9 September 2013

Stress, Stress & more Stress

That's all that consists for me at the moment, I always find getting the balance back to routine after the long summer holidays daunting & stressful... I can't begin to imagine how the children feel these days?!

It's one thing after another, uniforms, lunches, arriving on time, after school clubs, swimming, school trips, residential trips it really is all go, go, go this year!

On top of which this week I've a mammoth cake request for my good friend Louisa's wedding which is happening Friday - yes Friday 13th of all days, I'm a little superstitious & having nightmares of caketastrophes happening...

Tomorrow is the start of the big bake off, 10" chocolate, 8" lemon, 6" vanilla, alongside 20 of each chocolate, lemon & vanilla cupcakes for a contrasting cupcake tower to go next to the main cake!!!

Cascades of butterflies to adorn the main cake & contrasting butterflies for the cupcakes, ribbons, pearls it's all going to be beautiful but I can't help but panic & worry till it is all completed, set up looking lovely in situ.

I'm desperately trying to make it feasible to attend the evening celebrations, but due to transport, babysitters & an impending funeral on Monday too, I'm not sure I'll get there - I am trying though, with all the will in the world.

I'm as tense as can be, so as soon as I've helped put the children to bed & the shopping away, I think a long soak in a nice relaxing bath is most definitely in order tonight...

Number one son is as hyper as an energizer bunny, no idea why but it is pushing me to my limits & some right now - is this just a sign I'm getting old I wonder?!

Just a brief blog as so much to do & so little time, but wanted y'all to know why I just may be a little awol this week!!!

Thursday, 5 September 2013

Back to the Blogger app

As you may know from my last blog here I'd swapped from an unstable version of the Blogger app over to Bloggeroid...

Now it was ok as an app, but any photos I'd posted using that app magically disappeared (must get round to re-adding these sometime soon) so I figured, let's reinstall the Blogger app & see if it's more stable again these days?!

So far, so good... I'm currently using the app while cooking the minions dinner, yes it's later than usual but Youth Group doesn't prevail me making it earlier as I like to spend time with the little lady while the older siblings are having fun at the hub.

Quick tea tonight, pasta, pesto & frankfurters... They're all happy with that, so that's what they're getting!

Another gloriously sunny day today, caught up with not one, not two but three good friends which was lovely.

First a final dog walk with Sam & the wonderful Tommy, he sure is going to make a brilliant guide dog - I will miss him as will Sam & her family, but the walks won't stop as me & Sam want more energy & to be healthier :)

Next I went to see Sally with some wool for her next masterpiece creation ooak for me... We had coffee, chatted & it was bliss!

Finally, walking through town I briefly bumped into the lovely Kay... We had a short but brief catch up, which was well overdue & we're going to try & squeeze a coffee in somewhere, who knows where but we will try so we can really catch up.

Dinner is cooked & I must serve up, so I bid you a good evening.

Tuesday, 3 September 2013

Long time, no Blog?!

Not strictly true as I've been keeping up with my blogging over at my WordPress blog...

... But boy have I neglected this little baby?! Considering this was my firstborn blog I feel quite dreadful for leaving it out for the past few months.

The fact of the matter is, I tend to blog mostly from my phone these days as I have no time to set the laptop up & the PC is gathering dust too... But the title with mobile blogging is the apps!

Now WordPress has a remarkably stable app, I never, ever have a problem with it whatsoever. On the other hand, I swapped from the,blogger app to bloggeroid as the last blogger app update had too many bugs, wouldn't load or crashed & was too unstable both on Android & Apple (before anyone quips in with I should have an iPhone, I have an iPod touch & the app is just as unstable as it is on Android). So I started on Bloggeroid, but for whatever reason my photos have disappeared from my blogs which is,damn right frustrating!

Yes, I'm using Bloggeroid as I type but safely not putting any photos or pictures of any sort in this entry - so fingers crossed the blog stays as I type it, else I'll be don't some editing when the children are safely settled back to school.

I think it's time to retry the Blogger app & see if it is going to play ball, as I do miss sharing with y'all over here!

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Wednesday, 3 July 2013

Am I missing it?!

No, nope, not one incy, tincy, itty, bitty, bit...

I'm talking about Farcebook, sorry should I say Facebook?!

Now aside from the specific family members (you should all know who you are) I was in touch with regularly & a few dear friends (also I hope you realise who you are?) that I can actually say are friends.

Sadly I can say the majority of people that requested my friendship were either old school pals, nosey beggars or just fraudsters - hence I call it Farcebook!!! So many people abuse what was a good social network when it started out, these days there are so many that I will term as 'Cyber Trolls'

Most of these 'Cyber Trolls' sadly do not even realise what they do is so detrimental to others, as most people will not pick up on the subtle tell-tale signs some individuals post that things aren't just right: in fact even when the tell-tale signs ate blatantly obvious most people will overlook it or think things as 'he/she's just a drama queen, out for attention, wanting to be noticed' - but it is not as 'Black n White' as this.

Sometimes people just need some understanding, a friendly ear to listen, someone to talk to, a bit of empathy or just a hug. 'Cyber Trolls' rarely have a nice word to say, they keep quiet most of the time on what others post & then they just make little digs, chipping away at the person who may not be in the best of places, they could be suffering with anxieties, their self-esteem could be low & these 'Cyber Trolls' do not realise the damage they do...

Little digs when a person is vulnerable like this have a knock on effect (sometimes catastrophic effects) which is just awful. I'm sure they don't mean harm, but I'm also sure most are unaware of what damage these little digs can to ones soul. It is mental bullying & can be soul destroying & I for one have come across too many examples of pages, cakey friends & friends that have been subjected to such 'Cyber Trolls' that I have removed myself from such a negative environment.

There's enough sadness & negativity all around these days, so I'm talking a positive step to eradicate some from my life. I have my blogs, where I can write my thoughts down about anything & everything - after all I've freedom of speech, so therefore I'm speaking albeit in text form!

I still use Twitter as its not so offensive or full of 'Cyber Trolls' & of course I couldn't stop my Instagram antics as we all know how much I love my photos!!!

As for the dreaded Farcebook, I miss certain friends, family, cakey friends, my cakey hobby page, a couple of groups, a select couple of games but as for the endless drivel that sometimes certain individuals would gripe about & mindless 'Cyber Trolls' polluting the used to be nice social network - I do not miss it at all! In fact I can categorically say I miss smoking more & I don't actually miss that so Farcebook is well & truly off the cards for the foreseeable future for me.

Those that know me well enough & actually call me a friend that mean it, have my number, have my email, know my address & those that don't - who cares?! Not my problem anymore, I am creating my own happiness from now on. If you want cake there's ways to get in touch, but if you don't well I'm not complaining.

I may head back one day you never know, but which account I use I haven't decided... I've had 3 different accounts over the years, so it could be anyone of them if I return. But as I say it won't be in the foreseeable future, so don't hold your breath waiting - miss my photos?! Princess_Lyndypops is my Instagram... Miss my updates??? Lady_Cupcakez is my Twitter & you obviously know my blog if your reading this or you can look up my other on WordPress it's called: Photographic Opportunities

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