Tuesday, 8 April 2014

Tiresome Tuesday

So I've not blogged for a long time on here, for that one apologises but life has been pretty hectic & some for me. My eldest is now almost 13 & has various medical diagnoses but the most obvious is his Aspergers/High-Functioning Autism, my middle child is soon to be 11 & she is very hormonal, the youngest daughter recently turned 7.

In January 2013 I started medication for my epilepsy (this was the second lot of medication I've been put on as the previous if been put on in September 2012 I had a severe reaction to) I'm currently on Keppra which has just been increased again - it has some nasty side effects so for the next 2 weeks it'll be rough & then when it gets increased again in 2 weeks it shall also be tough for a while until my body gets used to these adjustments...

Today has been a tough day so far, first the middle child decided to be argumentative with me... She wouldn't come shopping & argued with every single thing I said - fortunately while out shopping she reflected on her actions, apologised (by note), had attempted to vacuum the lounge & made me a coffee, she is now behaving much nicer thankfully.

My son on the other hand started misbehaving as soon as we left for shopping, all because I said no to playing Minecraft... This is his current obsession & is out of control, we bought 'The Hobbit - the desolation of smaug' on BlueRay as it came with an exclusive Lego kit so he could have it, we also bought a lemon cheesecake that he requested too, but the behaviours got worse.

When home, he went & hid straight upstairs while the shopping was put away, the rest of us pitched together to do this & then had a Creme Egg Biscuit that I had already taken away a few weeks ago for his bad behaviour, he had to be persuaded to come down for that but soon went back into my room.

He then refused to come out of my room, so when told to come out & that he couldn't play Minecraft he had a complete anger outburst, throwing things downstairs, slamming doors, kicking walls, knocking over the rocking horse... He than opened his window & sat on the ledge (this was a regular occurrence last year), he was told of he didn't change his attitude then I would delete the game.

The behaviour continued more things were thrown the outburst didn't stop, so as I don't believe in empty threats the game went... Along with all saved data of worlds created. He is gradually calming down but I of course am the wicked mother for doing this, but I actually can't cope with this controlling behaviour of his anymore.

There are 5 of us in this house, 2 adults & 3 children... We all need to live together, communicate better, understand each other better, but because of the ages of the eldest 2 children being nearly 11 & 13, plus our sons issues times are trying on a daily basis.

High-Functioning Autism/Aspergers  is very challenging, like me with my Epilepsy on the outside we look normal but our brains are wired differently (mine just short-circuits, causing seizures or absences). I love my children dearly & do everything in my power to bring them up correctly, but being a parent is the hardest job in the world... There are no manuals, no 2 children are alike, no 2 children think the same, it is a massive learning curve.

I have decided now to take a silence vow for the rest of the day, that way I can do nothing more wrong to upset anyone. Doesn't matter if it upsets me, I am a robot now, cold & without feelings.

I shall hopefully come back soon with a nice cheerful blog for you to read, until then I apologise for any negativity but I'm just saying it as it is this isn't a complaint, it is just pointing out how hard it is living with a pre-teen boy with an autistic spectrum disorder & a middle daughter that's due to go to secondary school this September.

Life is a rollercoaster & you just have to ride it... Good job I'm a thrill seeker, hey?!

Friday, 7 February 2014

Blogger App is driving me away

I actually think I may move my BlogSpot blogs over to WordPress... Although their app had a few minor glitches (all sorted now, thanks) this Blogger app is just the pits!

Takes forever to sign in, problems saving drafts, then the keyboard glitches so it is actually driving me to insanity trying to do anything on here... Maybe this is the reason I took so long to install on the phone as it drove me crazy before?!

What is a blogger to do that wants to update all her blogs to a good degree & play fair with them all???  I just don't know... Frustrated & some is all I can say :-/

Blogging Frustration

So as you can see I've not actually blogged on here since September... Why?!  Lack of PC, a laptop that needed reformatting,  changing mobiles not one but twice,  mobile app being a complete pita (pain in the ass) & then only just installing the app on my current phone as I got so fed-up of everything getting in my way I had a break from Blogger!

If you are going through old blogs here you may well notice missing photos, no editing,  mismatched fonts, lack of colour & such like... I shall try to get my laptop on this arvo to edit & change all this - no promises though as it has already been one of those days!!!

I am all about being positive this year though & have put in place some fantastic tools to assist in this,  it's not to say I don't have off days - it's to detract from the negatives though whilst looking at the good in life.

So far in 2014 the weather here has been awful,  only a couple of frosty mornings,  a couple of dry days & an awful lot of rain, rain, rain... This can drag you down if you think of it to much but there is so much to be happy about to!

Family, friends, love, laughter, beauty, achievements all come for free & are part of everyday life,  let's try to embrace these things more... My eldest may have difficulties but he is a truly amazing boy with many talents,  he not only achieved a 7c in his Maths test but he also achieved a 7b in Science too -  Very Proud Mommy here, Well Done Son xXx

We've had 2 new additions to the household in the form of tiny kittens Molly & Jack, hours of fun, cute, cuddly, Peterbald Crosses.

It'll be half-term soon & shortly after that the little one will turn 7yrs old,  best start planning what to do for her birthday,  just hope the weather picks up!

Final year of primary school for the middle one (who turns 11 in the summer) & the eldest will be a teenage boy come July too - where did my babies go?!

Last year was a rollercoaster for us,  we lost 3 dear people in our lives,  had to say goodbye to a beloved old cat, saw some great friends get married, celebrated a milestone family birthday, met some wonderful new friends & lots of other high/low points throughout... So that's why I decided to change my outlook this year,  too many of us get stuck in daily rut routines as it is all too easy but in taking steps to prevent me getting caught in that trap.

Lots of exciting opportunities this year with making people smile,  having fun,  enjoying life to the full... What is stopping me??? Absolutely nothing!!!