Grrrrrr, stooopid app & weight loss... Or not!

Wasn't going to blog today, but I'm thoroughly peeved...


Firstly, I log in to Blogger via the app on my lovely new phone (almost a month old & I'm still in love with it) & I look at my list of blogs, then notice the OMG blog I wrote & published last week (Thursday I believe) was marked up as a draft on the app.


Now I know I published this blog as it appeared on my Facebook timeline courtesy of Networked Blogs & I can remember my good friend Jo Jo & my bestie Jason had both left comments on it!


Anyway, I figure as this copy on the app says it's a draft I should check it out & if needs be, delete the offending article... Sure enough when I go in to look at this said 'draft' blog article it was only a part written blog & not the completed blog that I had published. So I think to myself, yes it's a draft, it won't matter if I delete it... It has been published, all will be ok.


WRONG!!!!! Not only did it delete the draft but the complete published blog too - Arghhhhhhhh, so not happy! Stooopid bloody app "/


Secondly, most of my readers will know I attend Slimming World every Tuesday night & have been for almost 6 years now.


I don't profess to stick rigidly to plan every single week & I do occasionally go completely off plan, but generally as a rule I'm a pretty good member & stick to the plan as much as I possibly can.


However, this week I've been fairly good... Only deviating slightly off plan, but the couple of times this happened I made up for it with extra Body Magic (for those not in the know, this is exercise). I've walked a lot more, done Wii Fit, done Just Dance... There isn't much I haven't done on that front this week to be honest!


So why is it I can't put on a measly .5lb to get back in the bottom of my current target (or better still, loose 2.5lb to shift my target down to the next level) - this is so frustrating!!! Just staying stagnant normally doesn't bother me so, but that's when I'm in target... As I'm under target it is not good, I have to pay till I'm back in target or shift my target!


Now I should be thankful, I'm still a lot slimmer than I used to be, I eat a hell of a lot healthier & I am lighter than I was when I fell pregnant with my eldest Cameron (lost about 4-5 dress sizes). I'm far more concious of what I eat these days too.


When I think back to what I used to eat it makes me cringe with fear, I don't think I could do it now. For a brief example, I used to eat the following on a daily basis: Full Fat milk in coffee, hot chocolate, on it's own to drink, Gold Top (Jersey) milk on my breakfast cereal, Full Fat cheese & butter, White bread daily for sandwiches, countless packets of crisps, bars of chocolates, packets of sweets, Cheesy Chips (from the pub) & of course prior to kids I used to drink too, spirits, alchopops, cocktails... All this & more piled on the pounds!


I now hardly touch alcohol at all, rarely eat crisps or bread for that matter, occasionally I will treat myself with a few sweets, biscuits or some chocolate (but I know when to stop), I also generally drink/use either 1% fat milk or better still skimmed milk although I do on occasions use semi-skimmed at a push, I use lighter butter (when I have it) & where possible I use half-fat cheese. I also use extra lean mince & remove fat from other meats like bacon for instance.


Now a lot of people will say I don't need to loose any more weight, that I look fine as I am... But I do not feel fine, I've been 11.5lb lighter than I am now back in 2008 - I want to get to at least 9.5lb lighter & I will be happy. I want to look & feel good for me, not for anyone else. It's me that is not happy with the way I look & with sheer determination (& a lot of will power) I will again get there... It just might take a little time!


A few little rants, but ended positively... Hope you enjoy this blog & I won't be so stupid to delete any posts (drafts or otherwise) from the Blogger app on my phone ever again - doh!

Weak-willed, Sensitive Nose & Weight Loss...

Well, here I am at last finally getting round to writing a blog that would have been written a few days ago... on Monday I was going to attempt this blog & then again on Tuesday, but here we are in the early hours of Thursday & I have spared a few moments to sit down & blog!!!


After having a fairly stable day on Sunday & after a relaxed evening of karaoke at The Hart an unravelling week began...


Monday was a new day & I left my Bestie's lovely home at 7am to get the children ready for school, my will power slipped & I bought a packet of 10 menthol cigarettes while walking home.  They only had Berkley Menthol's (Yuk) so that had to make do, but I am thankful for them as they saved me from deserting my children when the stress got too much.  Epic Fail, I had been given up smoking for almost 2 months (bar 3 days) but alas due to Cameron's issues I turned to the nicotine & burst into tears.


After my failure of smoking a cigarette I locked myself in the bathroom & cried, while thankfully my gorgeous adopted daughter Alison finished getting the girls ready & got all three children safely to school for me.  She is a wonderful person & will always be a daughter, sister, fabulous friend & part of my family for all the help that she gives to me, Duncan & the children.


Not beating myself up too hard about the smoking failure, I got on with the rest of the day... I had a package to post so queued up in the mammoth queue that was in the post office at 2.45, that continued to grow after I had joined - Now why is my nose so sensitive?! The two guys stood behind me smelt like a brewery & yes, literally I do mean like a brewery as they weren't stood THAT close to me but boy you couldn't mistake the strongest smell of alcohol!  I don't get how anybody could've consumed that amount of booze in the daytime, but there are obviously some people that feel they cannot function without alcohol in their lives in the middle of the day. Very unpleasant & the queue seemed to move not that fast to my disappointment!


Tuesday was a fairly dippy emotioned day, one minuted I was up, the next I was down... it was all over the place.  But I did manage to get to my weekly Slimming World group to see how much weight I had lost this week after loosing 4lb last week (getting slimmer of the week), this week I had lost another 5½lb!!!  I can see my waist again - Yay =)


Now this blog seems to be a bit of a mish-mash of randomness, but hey you know me I like to be different!!!  I have to say with everything going on around me at the moment there are some truly magically funny moments which I will cherish as it's those moments that have kept my spirits up & stopped me from slipping under, prime example of the day... at about 5.15pm Duncan puts a status on Facebook: Duncan Sharp I've had enough, all u do is take take take, and give me nothing in return, I push the right buttons, u still give nothing, I bang you hard and u still give me nothing. U are officially dumped!!


I immediately panic, thinking what on earth is going on now?!  So send him a text saying 'What's wiv ur status? Worried...' 


Meanwhile my phone is getting phone calls, texts & generally going crazy while we're sat here trying to eat dinner.  The next call I see coming through is Duncan, so I answer that call & he is on the end of the phone almost crying with hysterical laughter as his phone also was on overload with texts/calls - it was only the stupid stereo in the kitchen that has been on it's way out for ages now won't co-operate & play his new Coldplay CD!!!  OMG, how funny is that?!  People all over thinking it was the end & getting in a right old panic about it, while Duncan is laughing his head off!  Funny as... well I thought it was & it is still making me smile now!


A final good note to end on, I am happy as a pig in muck as the Emma Bunton song 'I'll Be There' is on karaoke & I just need to practice it so I can sing it for my Bestie... he has been solid as a rock (& so has Claire) throughout all this & I would do the same for him any time because he is the next most important man in my life next to Duncan & I love him dearly too, for he is everything you could ever ask for in a best friend & more!